This story knocked me flat this morning on the subway with these couple lines: “The last time I’d been in the Savoy, it had been in Omaha. I hadn’t been anywhere near it in over a year, but I was just getting sicker. When I coughed I saw fireflies.”
Six pages of story that travel as fast as the El train the narrator rides, but so rich with the experience about being a messed up kid who couldn’t handle much of life, let alone getting his girlfriend pregnant and then not having the baby. If I hadn’t finished, I would have missed my stop just so I could read the end.
My Mistress’s Sparrow is Dead, Eugenides rich collection of love stories, made my day even before 9 AM. And I’m having a real hard time with this ridiculous hip hurting as much as it has over the past few days. The pain is angry, constant and frustrating. I hate limping, it makes me feel awkward, ungainly, and really unattractive; and it’s not as if I need any more pushing in that direction anyway, being in this kind of pain just amplifies all of the things I hate about myself and all of the things that have happened to my body as a result of the disease. It’s like the ache just settles into my whole being and forces its way into every little crack of my existence.
While I know that it’s probably got something to do with my shoes and the weather, I refuse to give in to either. Bitter cold and high heels, who knew they’d be the death of me?
Sorry to hear about the hip pain. I’m sure you’ve been told as often as I have – “Don’t let the pain control you.” Glad to hear you say, “I refuse to give in…”
(But it’s tough.)